grieved to be surrounded by people in bondage

The Spirit was upon me last night and brought up the following Scriptures in sequence as I was very grieved about being surrounded by so many people in bondage.

Ps 32:1  A Davidic instruction. How blessed is the on whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.
Ps 43:1  You be my judge, God, and plead my case against an unholy nation; rescue me from the deceitful and unjust man.
Jer 43:1  When Jeremiah had finished telling all the people all the words that YeHoVaH their God had sent him to tell them – that is, all these words –
Isa 53:1  Who has believed our message, and to whom has the arm of YeHoVaH been revealed?

The amount of people living in bondage is overwhelming. There is little difference between those attending church services on a regular basis and the “unchurched”. Frequently I encounter pastors in bondage just like the parishioners. It is so sad to see. But say they are okay – just like the church of Laodicea.  They have no desire to change.
It grieves me tremendously.

September 25

Since I have internet right now, I will write.

The night of September 25th turned into a special night of prayer for us. It was the night right after Yom Kippur (according to the moon sighting – not the rabbinical dating), the commanded day of fasting. Here are the Scriptures in the sequence Holy Spirit gave them to us:

Ps 84:7  They go from strength to strength being seen in Zion before God.
Ps 92:3  on the ten strings, and on the harp; on the lyre with sounding music.
Ps 54:4  Behold, God is my helper. The Lord is with those who uphold my soul.
Isa 54:4  Do not fear, for you shall not be shamed, nor shall you be abashed, for you shall not be wounded. For you shall forget the shame of your youth, and you shall not remember the reproach of your widowhood any more.
Deu 9:28  lest the land from which You brought us say, Because YeHoVaH was not able to bring them into the land which He promised them; and, because He hated them, He has brought them out to kill them in the wilderness.
Isa 59:1 Behold, the hand of YeHoVaH is not shortened for saving, nor is His ear heavy from hearing.
Zeph 3:9  For then I will give a pure language to the peoples, to call all of them by the name of YeHoVaH, to serve Him with one shoulder.

These Scriptures make a story line, which is very personal to us. The last verse seems to point to the restoring of the Hebrew language among God’s people.
Please let us know how these Scriptures speak to you.


I got up in the night to worship. HE was drawing me and I responded in praise, not bursting, but slowly, in the same manner as HE awoke me, slowly and gentle drawing me to HIMSELF. It was a very muggy night. When I looked out of the window, I could not see any stars and I thought that it must be all cloudy. So I said in my mind “I can’t see any stars”. “Look again” HE nudged me and as I looked again and moved closer to the window to look more straight up, I saw one bright star. Then I moved over into the slide out of the camper and opened the sliding window. I accidentally slid open the screen too. Noticing the opening I stuck my head outside and looked up. Suddenly I saw numerous stars. Then I went back to bed. The clock on the microwave was displaying 4:45. As I was laying in bed HE continued speaking to me. The book was held out in front of me, laying flat on its side. The book which we call the Bible. Then YEHOVAH explained to me. “Whenever you choose which word you will apply or practice you are placing yourself above the book” and I saw a hand motioning above the book as displaying a person who has usurped authority above God. “I am the WORD. i am indivisible, I am eternal, I am one”. As HE was laying down these heavy statements in front of me, I suddenly became aware of HIS HOLINESS. Motioning the hand under the book then displayed the full submission under HIM and HIS WORD. Picking and choosing what to accept (taking to heart) and what to disregard from HIS WORD (the Bible) is idolatry, so HE explained to me. As I was embracing the revelation and joy, tears of reference were running down my cheeks. I so much love and cherish these hours of close fellowship, when my FATHER reveals HIS HEART to me. Then I realized how much people complain about the weather and that this complaining is no different from the murmuring of the Israelites wandering in the desert. All this time I kept seeing ‘The Book’ held out in front of me. His Holy Word, indivisible, eternal. It was like HIM saying “this is ME” (the book) “Will you accept ME – undivided just as it is?” I could feel the great love and desire to draw me in and to make me ONE with HIM. I welcomed the invitation and went. As always – I repeated and contemplated over the experiences and more revelation came along in this. It is like ocean waves on the beach. While the water on the sand is running back into the sea the next wave is rolling over the returning water, continuing a cycle and trying to reach up a little higher on the beach. Pictures and thoughts are still coming to my mind as I am writing this here. Again I was thinking about the weather and how people always tend to complain about the weather. I thought how HE is the thunder and the lightning. Rain is a gift from HIM. Hail is in HIS storehouse for punishment. Job describes much of this for us. As my thought went back to HIS WORD and how it is indivisible and needs to be accepted wholly and complete, I was wondering about these chapters with all the names and why are they in the bible and what are those supposed to tell us. HE answered “They are written down, because I have chosen to honor them in this way”.

YHVH does not always tell me literally in English words. Often HE gives me impressions, pictures and feelings, which I am trying to put in words in order to communicate the message to others.

As I was relating this experience to Starla she added “If we place ourselves above THE BOOK HE cannot stoop down to us, because we are unwittingly trying to be above”. YEHOVAH desires to lift us up. Therefore we have to place and submit ourselves under HIM in all things.

awakened at night

Sunday morning at 1am I was awakened by an allergy attack. I haven’t had that for nearly two years. So I went to the living room and cried out to YeHoVaH. HE answered and said “I have missed you”. I was reminded that I hadn’t met with my Father for 2 weeks other than a short prayer before eating. Moving and getting used to the camper, I simply forgot. So I was struck by YeHoVaH’s longing for me and suddenly didn’t see the allergy attack as a bad thing anymore but rather as a sign of HIS grace and HIS way of getting my attention. I felt loved and thankful. I prayed and soon the Spirit lead me to Jeremiah 10:17. I meditated over the verse and looked at various translations and the Hebrew but didn’t grasp a sure meaning of it. I read to the end of the chapter and found much judgement even against pastors. After 2am I went back to bed. I didn’t give it much thought all Sunday being busy with gathering provisions etc. Towards 9pm Starla suddenly noticed that we hadn’t read in the Bible yet all day, as is our custom. We read a chapter looking forward to going to bed on time to get enough sleep before the alarm goes off again at 5am. But it went all different. I was drawn into worship, turned on music and we sang, when the Spirit suddenly took me to Isaiah 40:10. I could easily spot the verse as being Messianic, when reading on. I went on to worship and the Spirit took me to Ezekiel 4:7. Suddenly I could see the three verses in connection, talking about Jerusalem and it’s inhabitants but not only the physical city in Israel but all who claim to follow YeHoVaH. Many were being judged for doing it their way. The righteous once were being protected from the judgement and wrath. On we worshiped and I was taken to Psalm 87 and later Psalm 69. Both of them adding more to the picture. The Hebrew word for Jerusalem is a plural word of two entities encompassing a heavenly Jerusalem and an earthly Jerusalem. I could suddenly see the difference between the righteous resembling the heavenly Jerusalem, which God desires and the disobedient resembling the earthly Jerusalem, which God eventually judges and removes. Then I thought about the recent Supreme Court decision of not recognizing Jerusalem to be the capital or even in Israel. I am afraid judgement and wrath will again come quickly on the US.

In The Refiner’s Fire

Yesterday evening I got into an argument with my wife, which would be considered as not very significant by the world’s standards. However we both felt the tension and reconciled afterwards as we always do in such case.

During the following nightly prayer with Yehovah I was moved by deep conviction over the incident, mainly because it happened in front of another person and in that persons home. Yehovah showed me how I had misrepresented Him before that person at least as bad as Moses did at the second rock.
As my agony grew worse He reminded me that if we break one commandment, we break them all. Then He showed me how I had broken each of the Ten Commandments in just one incident.

1. I worshiped myself in wanting to be right instead of reflecting HIS character and person.
2. I cast an image of a self right instead of allowing HIM to take center stage and presenting HIM to my neighbor.
3. I called myself a Christian in vain while I was centered on myself.
4. I profaned the Sabbath (=rest) as I took away rest and peace from everybody on the scene.
5. I dishonored my Father by not following HIS leading but going my own way.
6. I killed at least some of what Yehovah had built in my neighbor
7. I committed adultery by following my own pride instead of the ONE I am covenanted to.
8. I stole peace from everyone present.
9. I gave a false testimony of Yeshua.
10. I coveted being right in my own eyes.

I was heavily struck by conviction and searched for a way out until I was reminded of the blood of the Lamb. As I applied the blood the guilt was taken but the wound was still there and I was looking for healing balm. Then I was reminded to worship and allow the soothing of Praises to HIM administer healing.
This took probably an hour.

Afterwards I communicated all of this to my wife and we wept much. I concluded that if the Lamb had not been slain from the foundation of the world Adam would have returned to dust right after his first sin.
– Oh, the wickedness of sin. – Oh HIS mercies.